“If you don’t love yourself, how in the hell you gonna love somebody else?” – RuPaul

As a former plus size model and a global artist at Saks Fifth Avenue in NYC, I meet models and celebrities and just regular “thin” people daily. I worked with photographers who would complain that the light reflected off my cellulite or agencies who claimed I wasn’t “plus size enough.” I work on models who don’t eat for three days before a shoot and their skin looks like it’s about to fall off, yet they are labeled the most beautiful women alive.

At 402 pounds I could look into the mirror and feel beautiful. I didn’t hate myself or my body. At 300 pounds I was in print magazines, on the walls of my favourite store and even one tiny billboard in LA.

Kelsey in 2003

Beauty isn’t about the number on the scale or the size on the tag of your pants. Beauty is so much more how you feel about yourself and thus what you radiate out into the world.

I’m struggling now that I’ve lost most of my regain (60 pounds so far) I don’t know where to end my loss. I look in the mirror today and I feel beautiful. I’m still obese class 2 — but my body looks good to me. Yes, I have loads of loose skin, and saggy bits. Yes, I’m not a size zero or wearing an extra small. But I feel good because I like being a bit on the curvy side. People at work exclaim how “tiny” I am — which is only in comparison to how I looked before I lost weight — not in relative terms to cover models or actually skinny people.

Who gets to determine your beauty?


It’s not about a magazine telling us perfect proportions, or a music video showing the “thick” girls or even your boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife/partner/family/friend/etc. It’s you. It’s not about what plus size means or doesn’t mean, or the normalization of skinny or fat.

I think it’s time we celebrate the beauty in all forms – we here at BE are supporting your change for a healthier lifestyle, a better quality of life, and a path to help you see the beauty in yourself – but you need to look in the mirror and see it too.

I’m incredibly proud to have lost 256 pounds, and 58 a second time. I’m proud that Italian Vogue had the courage to show women who aren’t size zero, and that Ashley Graham showed the world that the cover of Sports Illustrated isn’t just for the ultra thin. But in reality, I hope each of those women feel beautiful in their own right and are not looking for justification from a society that just doesn’t quite understand yet.



Kelsey today, after losing 60 pounds of Regained weight!


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7 thoughts on “❤ I love ME even with loose skin & saggy bits! – Kelsey ❤

  1. yadonai01 says:

    Thank you Kelsey! Thank you for your thoughts on the meaning of beauty and loving yourself “as is”. I know this, but sometimes I need to hear the message from someone else to vindicate my thoughts. I got to goal, regained 30 and lost those 30 using BOT. I am 61. There is a part of me that feels more beautiful than I did when I was 21. Sometimes I wonder if there is something wrong with me, because I don’t care that much about the baggy skin.

  2. Lisa says:

    Kelsey, thank you so very much for reminding me that beauty is an inside job. I choose to not let the world define me … and I choose to see my smile and joy …. still working on accepting the loose skin, but I will get there. I am beautiful!

  3. Lisa Eriksen says:

    Congrats on the article and weight loss Kelsey! It was so on point! I have not personally had regain yet, but I am 2 years post op and still fighting to get to goal. I am in no hurry and am enjoying the journey.
    You are a true inspiration and a beautiful woman inside and out!

  4. Andrea says:

    This is very inspiring i am 5 years post-op and have gained back 30lbs. I am placing my order today to help me in losing my regain. This article was very inspiring!!! You look awesome and congrads!!!!

  5. Pej says:

    Kelsey thank you for this thoughtful and full of substance article. You are incredibly beautiful inside and out. You helped me understand that my old best friend a tiny petite size zero absolutely gorgeous at your level could have been a model if she was 3 inches taller that is a make up artist honestly meant it when she told me I was beautiful and that some women are meant to be plump (when I was 150lbs) and beautiful and are beautiful when plump. I used to think she said that because she felt sorry for me and recently because she competed with me. Now I understand the artist eyes she saw me with when she would do my make up. Anyways though I am 10 lbs from 150 lbs goal of my dr., right now I am enjoying seeing myself though still a little plump and you have made me realize something very deep inside me, I do love myself again, I am by far model perfect but I can look in the mirror and I see beautiful again and that feeling is priceless. Congratualtions on your accomplishments and thank you for sharing your story. I have been doing 3 shakes a day and a lean protein meal and I have lost anther inch but the scale hasn’t moved. I will increase it to 5 and meal and see. I want to be down one more size and Inspire and my commitment to my health is my vessel??

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